Life

OKAY I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A TENNESSE WILLIAMS PLAY, RELYING ON THE KINDNESS OF OTHERS. THIS HOLIDAY SEASON IS HARD, ME AND THE KIDS LIVE APART, I WAS BLESSED TO HAVE A FRIEND BUY THEM SOME GIFTS. THERE DAD MY EX IS STILL IN THE HOSPITAL,BETTER, BUT HE'S NOT WORRIED ABOUT THEM HAVING CHRISTMAS, IT'S STILL ABOUT HIM. MY OLDEST IS JUST FIGURING OUT HE'S NOT A CUTE KID BUT A 19 YEAR OLD YOUNG MAN SO HE'S NOT ON THE GIFT LIST. MEANWHILE, MY PHONE KEEPS RINGING WITH OFFERS OF BOOTY CALLS, WTF. MY BELOVED REMEMBERED MY BDAY A WEEK LATER, WHICH ONLY TELLS ME THAT'S IT'S TIME TO KEEP IT MOVIN. I'M TRYING TO STAY UP AND POSITIVE FOCUSED, IT'S HARD, NEW YEAR'S IS AROUND THE CORNER AND WHERE'S MY DATE...UGH! THE UPSIDE IS THINGS COULD ALWAYS BE WORST....

Thanks to God, I saw another birthday, it was quiet,I spent it ball room dance practicing at the karate school. My oldest always tells me first, then my almost baby girl, his best bud called me, I got some nice calls, however missing from my b-day list was The one I love and the one I used to love...funny, but actually the one I love and whose call, card etc. I waited for never came, it answered a burning question. Time to move on, I realized that If you want me, you'd make the time, take the time to be together. Odd thing is that I'm not mad, or to sad, just moving on. Besides there's a young man who has been talking to me and would like the chance to get to know me better, perhaps now is the time. I plan to expand my horizons and date again, there are alot of young men not babies who like a mature woman.

Okay I'm trying to stay up and focused, but...but...anyhoo, I'm sitting here at the dojo desk, and Michael Henderson "Take Me I'm Yours" and thinking about happier times. My Love is in the Yellow Rose State and here I am still in the struggle for survival. Trying to get a date for New Year's Eve, nothing heavy, just a dance buddy and someone to talk with the evening, that keeps the oldies far, far away from me.

I have been happily divorced for many years now and have never looked back, however, me and the x have 3 kids together so we are still family unit with our kids. Now the reason I'm so cheesed off now is his family. Due to unforseen circumstances, the kids have had to move with him and his family, who If I believed in aliens, they would be them. Now my x, the apple of his momma's eye, the sun, the moon and the earth is just where she wants him back with her. Well captain no workout pulled a groin muscle, I brought over ibuprof and muscle relaxers helping the cause, little did I know this simpering, whiny butt, man would completely fall apart and that his momma would revert back to treating him like a 5 year old, I took my kids to my momma's where I cooked and we spent time with her, and I got to listen to her stories non-stop.., anyhoo, I get back, his mom is like "I didn't know he was hurt like that" (he lives in the same house)Oh I didn't know, well h

We as adults have to be responsible for our own actions. Time and time again, I see, I read, I hear about infidelities amongst the rich and famous. We as the regular moms and dads, husbands and wives have grown to understand, that "it takes a couple" to make a marriage. A successful marriage takes team work. We as regular moms and dads cannot live our lives Hollywood style, in the conveyor belt of lust. There are many successful marriages in Hollywood that have lasted and continue to last, because they operate and function as a couple, they are together, the love is real. Marriage vows are sacred, they are not to be ignored and tossed aside. If people put as much time into working through the bad times as they do enjoying the good times, Marriage will no longer be expendable, it will be something worth fighting for once again, it will be as it was meant to be, the ultimate show of love, passion and respect.

OKAY ELECTIONS ARE OVER THE ONES WHO BEGAN THE THE TSUNAMI ARE BACK IN CONTROL BASED ON THE FEARS INSPIRED BY THE TEAPARTY, THE MEDIA, THE FRIGHTENED MASSES. IT'S AMAZING HOW WE THE PEOPLE ALL THE PEOPLE, THE BLACK THE WHITE, THE RED, YELLOW AND THE BROWN ARE LED LIKE SHEEP, WE LISTEN TO "FEAR SPREADERS" WHO TELL US ALL MANNER OF GRIMM BROTHER STYLE FAIRY TALES OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF WE DON'T GO BACK TO THE OLD WAYS OF RUNNING THE COUNTRY WE LISTEN TO TEA PEOPLE WHO SPEW SUCH A OPEN HATRED AND DISDAIN..COME ON PEOPLE IN GOD NOT MAN WE TRUST AND SO MANY PEOPLE NEED SO MUCH SHOULD WE NOT BE TRYING TO HELP EACH OTHER SURVIVE IN THESE DIRE TIMES NO MATTER WHAT COLOR, WHAT ISSUE(S) WE HAVE, SHOULD WE NOT BE WORKING TOGETHER TO HELP NOT HURT, INSULT OR DEGRADE? GOD HELP US ALL!

OKAY AS THE SEASON CHANGES, I AM BECOMING AWARE OF THE FACT I AM ONCE AGAIN ALONE..THE OBJECT OF MY AFFECTION IS 22 HOURS AWAY FROM ME..UGH, AND THE REPLACEMENTS AVAILABLE ARE A NO. I HAVE COME TO REALIZE THAT IT'S OKAY FOR MEN TO TELL US THEY ARE NOT INTERESTED OR JUST DON'T CALL OR RESPOND, WE HAVE ICE-CREAM CHOCOLATE FOR ME AND THEN WE MOVE ON...HOWEVER, WHEN THEY WANT US AND WE ARE NOT INTERESTED, WHY THE ATTITUDE, THE CONTINUED PESTERING, THE HINTS AND SOMETIMES THE ANGER? I AM AT THE AGE WHERE I KNOW WHAT I WANT, HOW I WANT IT AND THE WHOM(S) I WANT IT FROM. TO THOSE WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND THERE ARE 10,552 WOMEN FOR EVERY MAN, SO FIND ONE AND KEEP IT MOVING. WHEN A GENTLEMAN THAT I REALLY FEEL APPROACHES, AND WE CONNECT IT WILL BE GOOD ALL AROUND, NO FAKING, NO PRETENDING TO LIKE ETC, IT WILL BE MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL....FUN!

>Why is it the person you knew first, who had opportunity to be with you from jump and was perfectly happy to be your friend, decides they want you after you become involved with someone else they know in the circle of friends..I don't get it; Is it some man territorial thing, I don't want you untill someone else does? Next is why is trying to be all I can be hard, I'm still looking for a job, the one i had dried up, I volunteer at the spot, hoping a part time gig pops up so i can get a ride, i'm stressed bigtime what's a girl to do?

I am findng life extremely difficult at best.  Finding lasting work is becoming a joke at least in Michigan..or Detroit, if you don't have a car, you are screwed to the 9th power, because we have no decent public transportation.  The people who could help you, don't because they have jobs...It's not being selfish on purpose, it's just they have no need, so they don't understand your need to work.  Men...oh I love and cherish them, but and I say this with love, could you see, how maybe I don't want to date and what not until I get my life in order, maybe the one person I loved and thought would be a part of them team, has been traded off due to their own life issues, can you see that as a mother trying to get back in her house with her kids, dealing with a whiny ex, trying to keep some income and it seems to not be working life is getting hard to bear.

IT'S FALL AGAIN, I'M SO NOT READY FOR IT.  I MISS MY HOUSE, HAVING MY STUFF MY WAY, I'M THANKFUL I HAVE A PLACE TO BE, BUT THERE REALLY IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME.  I'M STILL SEARCHIN FOR A PERMANENT FULL TIME GIG, IT IS TRULY UGLY OUT HERE.  BUT I DO WHAT I MUST.  MY FRIEND...I USED TO SAY MY GUY, BUT THE PLAYERS CODE DECLARES, ONE MUST NEVER CLAIM THE ONE YOU CARE FOR  IN PUBLIC, UNLESS...THEY ARE ANOTHER RACE.  ANYHOO I MISS HIM, TOGETHER WE WERE A GOOD TEAM, BUT I'M TIRED OF BEING NO 2 IN MEN'S LIFE, DUE TO WHATEVER THE REASON I NO LONGER CARE...IF I CAN'T BE THE ONE, NUMBER ONE, WHY BOTHER, AND I'M NOT, I'M JUST SURFIN THE WAVES OF LIFE.

MY WEEKEND WAS SPECTACULAR..IT WAS A BIG SPORTS KARATE FITNESS EVENT, I GOT TO MEET AND GREET NEW FACES FROM NEW PLACES...MET A HANG OUT BUDDY AND WE HAD THE BEST TIME...IT WAS NICE TO BE THE FOCUS AND CENTER OF ATTENTION FOR A CHANGE. YEP I GOT TO BE NUMBER 1, IT'S ONLY SIGNIFICANT TO ME, BECAUSE MANY MEN THINK THEY CAN HAVE A 1 AND 2, I'M AT THE STAGE AND PLACE IN MY LIFE THAT IF I CAN'T BE THE NO. 1, WHY BOTHER? WHAT IS THE POINT,?WHAT POSSIBLE BENEFIT IS IT TO ME? I HEAR NELLY'S SONG "I AM NUMBER ONE..., ANYHOO ,ME AND MY HANG BUD WE CHILLAXED , TALKED AND HAD A BLAST. I ALSO WENT ON A YACHT CRUISE I WON, WHICH TAUGHT ME ABOUT FRENCH WINE AND CHEESES ETC.., IT WAS A GORGEOUS CRUISE, HOWEVER MOST OF THE PEOPLE WERE COUPLED UP AND HAPPY, NONE OF THIS AMBIGUOUS NONSENSE , SEE BACK TO HE NO. 1 POINT IF WE ARE TOGETHER WE ARE TOGETHER, IF WE ARE NOT, SO BE IT, BUT I AIN'T , I'M NOT, I CAN'T BE NUMBER 2, I AM FAR TOO WONDERFUL AS #1.

I'm so tired of dealing with the angry man..I have a 18 year old who is so full of rage, but why? Maybe because his dad never worked and left the weight of it all on me, maybe because the first house I brought got broke into twice, maybe because guys he thought respected him tried to mug him. Could it be the girl he loveddddddddd, who broke his heart sucked the fun out of him. I don't know, I'm doin the best I can, I've been off work since 2007 of course after I purchased my very first house for me and the kids, it was an okay hood in the beginning, but now not so much, all the men moved away leaving a block of single moms, kid moms, divorced moms, auntie's with nephews trying to raise men. My guy moved out state, there dad is clueless on how to raise kids, he whines and complains like a toddler, the kids have only been with him 3 months, since my house is sick right now. I should be the angry woman, but yet I keep pluggin along, I yearn to live in a new state,

okay me, my house and the general disposition of it is.... disarray , the hood boyz do nothing but look for openings to break in and take what little i have left, i don't feel comforted anymore, their dog killed my cat, who lived on my porch and was taking care of her kittens...all of this began when my guy moved away...he left for Texas and suddenly all hell broke loose, I'm not a gun person but....., it gives you something to think about. I'm trying to leave the city myself, I'm tired, no job, no loot, and too much foolishness for me.

why is it that so many people feel compelled to roam outside of their relationship? especially if they have a happy one, that they know they don't want to lose? is a few moments of pleasure truly worth it? I don't think so, I realize I'm in a minority and the most of the world feels they should be able to roam freely with no consequences, no remorse, but the damage to the one you love is forgivable but not forgettable and the damage has been done forever it's been cast in memory. I remember a guy I dated who gave me the "roam around" and we are friends now, but I could never love him the way I did or trust him or have faith in him. The only love I have is the love a good friend gives another. Life is stressful enough, I love for intimacy, companionship, the comfort of one, it don't take all the men in the world just the love and respect of one.

Why the hate? where are all those people who wanted health care reform, are they in the house hiding? all I see is these selfish nimrods of NO, who don't care if the richest country in the world takes care of it's own....I'm so sick of the Tea Party I could really vomit, I'm for the Coffee Cabaret of Coverage, I'm for helping those who can't help themselves, I worked from age 15 till 2007 paying health, fica , ss , etc.., Now that I'm looking for work, I'm uninsured, my kids are uninsured, and you don't want me to have coverage, I tell you what for all the years I was healthy and contributed BIGTIME to the health care industry, send me a check back, instead of spending billions to stop coverage, help, I know that word sounds foreign HELP, and all these nasty people spitting and acting all kinds of ugly, what example are you showing, my kids were like mommy..."they are cursing and spitting on people". America Grow up.

i'm tired of all these bad reports of marriage woes abounding. marriage is hard work, as much time as people spend making dumb decisions to cheat and be cads, people have got to work it out, stop letting these bimbos men or women put marriages in the street trying to make a dime, it just ain't right. stop giving up on your marriage your spouse your good for the worse. Get some counseling , get some help, pray, refocus, renew your marriage, kick the bimbo's aside, if you married be married, if you are single, be single with single people, the thing people don't understand is that the stuff comes back to you full circle, you wreck a home, your day is coming and coming sooner than you think. respect the marriage, respect the vows if nothing else grow the f. up and find an available free person.

it's a gloomy start to St. Patty's Week... i'm not Irish, but I have a diverse group of friends, associates and such. I've spent this weekend draining water from the basement, the sewer the rain water. My ex can only tell me he has no money to help. It's troubling to know you made a poor choice of mates..I feel somedays that almost 17 years I wasted, I got 3 great kids out of it, but out of all that time, work was not in his vocab, I learned a very hard lesson from that, I believe he loved me, but he loved himself more, I dated two more like that till I learned my lesson good. I approach relationships in a completely different way now, I do more paying attention and listening and observing, so when they say "I love you" I say I love me too and will be looking out for my heart and feelings.

I'm going to check into this nursing program, I wanted to be a trucker, but the company I went to gave me the your in then you need a co-signer blues...at 45 come on!, and I did corporate college reimburse before and that school got all their money!@#!$ !), well anyhoo , I'm going check out this program, yeah I'm not a big smell person, but I'm not liking the broke feelings of late. I love being able to take care of my and my brood, the alternatives presented too me! ugh! and people thought money for Nubxxx was all gone. Nope the offers still manage to present themselves, what I wanna know is where are they getting the money from, since most of us have none, where is the hidden stash kept. All I know is that I'm planning on getting a new career gig and taking care of me and mine.

okay it's official, i'm so tired of being in the pile of not "employed people" and i'm tired of people who always know what career path I should be doing...and mind you these are always the people who are 25 cents ahead of you. I just want a new career, with new dreams and goals, i want to be able to pay my bills and take vacations with my kids and just be. The path of the single mom is not easy, but this is the way it is, so you work it out and keep on steppin , you pray, you seek, you encourage one another and hope for God's favor! peace

what will become of michigan ? I was driving home yesterday and the blocks that used to have children playing in the yards and husbands and wives, and other family unions are all gone...it's like we are becoming one big "ghost town", on my block in the hood, neighbors I knew are long gone and empty houses sit, the kids my kids used to play with are long gone. It's not just a Detroit problem, the burbs have the same issues, empty blocks, spaces that used to be filled with people..gone, I worry what will become of me and my brood and continue to pray every day and look for a better way to make it!

so shall we all move to Kentucky? I think we should all pack up in giant caravans of people and move to the bluegrass state. Since the Senator there says " tuff stuff" and that's not the word he used to us being out of work, I think plainly he wants all the states all 49 of the other states with people out of work to come live in Kentucky. I figure the state must have a ton of jobs with benefits by the thousands. It must have affordable housing and be the best place to live, so start packing your caravan now and let's all go to Kentucky!!

when times are bad or just not so good, employers have what I call "La Grande Time," giving everybody the high hard one. Good employees get it, but I don't get it. If I had a business, my good people, I want to keep, even in lean times, I would want to keep them around, but this universal thought of I'm going to treat everybody like manure just doesn't work for me, the market will change, I will move up and on and where will you be? I can tell you left with a room full of the people you didn't want, who don't care who actually don't want to work anyway. And me the good employee will be gone, I won't spread rumors, truths or lies, I will just move on and forget you ever exsisted, I won't tell friends and family I was treated this or that way, won't have too, those sloths that you got stuck with, will provide all the mass media you will ever need, that's just my thought today

okay as a woman who was married to a faithful man, I was blessed in that aspect. However growing up you hear stories and such about infidelities and how the wives survived it, stayed or left. It was a family matter. Now days every time a man or woman wander or dally outside the marriage, it becomes a matter of news, reality t.v. or some other nuisance. Tiger Woods is the latest player to get his card punched. Now he explained and talked and I'm tired and don't want to hear anymore about it. He only owes an apology or explaination to his wife, he's a golfer to me, that's all, he's not a role model! He's just a man with problems, nobody I know is perfect and for society to think he would be is just so stupid beyond belief. He doesn't pay my bills, he's not married to me, so why would I get my panties in snit because the dreamy image of him has been tainted...Please, Please people find a real cause in life.

For the single mom life is a constant motion, it never stops, for the single mom with color any color it's even more stressful, because of culture, climate, etc...I'm tired and want some tlc , I've got 3 kids who are busy karate kids 2 boys and a girl, this is what we do...the oldest the teenager is concentrating on being all he can be with karate. It's a good thing, raising a teen age boy in the hood is not an easy task and we've been through alot , trying to keep positive roll models in the boys life, and be a good roll model for my daughter is hard. My mom moves around the city to pay me back for some past transgression I just know it, she's far east, she's far west, who knows every 2.5 years she picks a new city to move to, but at least she has a man who adores her and is her partner. My funny story today, i paid my water bill and I didn't have the outside line, it wasn't jammed pack with people for the first time in eons...I miss my friend he

Well I survived another Valentine's day. I heard from friends, associates and pals. I baked heart shaped cakes and encouraged love all around. Even though mine appears to have vanished behind that macho stuff "I don't celebrate, I celebrate everyday"...blah blah blah, anyhoo , I cooked that nice italian meal, had a glass of moscato and chocolate and enjoyed getting some serious r & r, my son's school celebrates "Black Love" day, so I was busy till I wasn't. i settled for a nice evening of the Olympics where I, who have no skiing ability whatsoever, was excited watching the skiers hit those slopes, yeah I imagined it was me, I saw me in the downhill, beating all competition and in the speed skate. Yes i had a good weekend.

Why is it that men in charge hate to be belittled in public, but don't hesistate to belittle someone else. You draw flies with honey not vinegar. I don't understand it, some people feel they should be able to say and do whatever they please to anyone, but woe if you check, cross-check or high stick their tiny feelings OMG!, they are ready to fight, or generally stinky actin for some unknown time limit until, their itty bitty, teeny weeny little feelings have healed..ugh, my advice stop oversharing your opinion, when you are not the boss, and if you are the boss, learn some people skills.

The snow finally hit us... eww , I know I live in a cold weather state, but the older I get the less of the snow and cold I enjoy..besides my cuddle bunny is at the other end of the earth. Okay this week I saw Sarah Palin on T.V. yappin again....I did listen to her, but I'm sorry in spite of the womenhood kindredness , I've decided she is the one-liner queen, full of whimsical, quirky one-liners that mean ab-so-lute- ly - nothing, Ugh.

Okay I'm still hyped about the Saint's winning the Superbowl... booya ! It was there turn, the commercials were okay, I enjoyed the little boy and the Doritio's commercial and the E-trade commericals with the babies, those are always funny. I actually like the pre -game commercials a little better, the caveman ones for Geico , those are funny and the Coke commerical that was cool. I went down to Lucky's with my bud and we met some cool folks who watched the game with us, it was cool, I'm surprised I don't have a cold though...it was a serious chill factor in there, they could stand to turn the heat up a smidge lol ;

The police are on a mad hunt for all, has anybody in the D noticed a increase in the police, i sit and watch from sun rise to sun set all the police pulling people over, taking cars, now i'm wondering is it because these are people trying to drive with their own personal meth lab, or are they pulling over the puff puff pass people or checking for drunk drivers. What is going on, I see tow trucks all up and down 7 mile tracking folk down, anybody know wassup ?

okay the closer it gets to Valentine's day, the more ex's and next's call? Come on if you are an ex and call we know it's about a booty call, if you are a next and keep calling we know it's about the booty call. My phone is blowing up from ex's twice and thrice removed...If I didn't call you by now...please go away. Candy is a beautiful thing, chocolate is magnifico , but It will get you no closer to my personal space, come on, the city is big there are oodles and boodles of babes to choose from, please get to it, my dance card is all full.

It's another gray day here in Detroit. A little snow and ice makes all the drivers go beserk ...come on people, we live in a snow state, stop acting brand new and drive carefully. Why do people you interact with whether professionally or socially sometimes feel that their dream should be your dream? I believe people can work with and for each other and help each other, without necessarily dreaming your dream. A great job can still be done above and beyond expectations, but I don't have to want to live your dream. I have friends and associates who own and sell and blah blah and they constantly try to shove there dream of americana down my throat, and I'm thinking what part of I'm not interested in what you are doing beyond giving you friendship or associate support, and quit nagging and whining about it. I tire of hearing if you all did this, if you all did that, blah, blah, If it's your dream, then live your dream, do YOUR thing, but don't be including me

COFFEE CABARET FOR COVERAGE!!! okay I just heard that Sarah Palin is speaking at the Tea Party's Tea so to speak. Come on give me a break, Sarah Palin is just an annoying voice women who used her savvy or something and got to almost be...(whew) the vice president of the United States of America, this is not even about party lines for me, I just think there are so many more women that could represent the good ole USA with the right skill set, when I listen to her voice, it's like nails on a chalk board, and all those folksy sayings are about as fake as her eyelashes. So therefore I'm requesting nominees for my Coffee Cabaret for Coverage, we as women know and understand that life is hard, we have to deal with much in our lifetime, I want a woman no matter what color that has lived some life, to represent me, not one who has to be told what,where,how and how to say it and be dressed up like some stepford wife. So post your nominees for the Coffee Cabaret today!

why do people think the 50 state condition would change in a year?????, it took the previous regime in charge 2 terms to make a mess, so why would anyone think it will be fixed in a year?? is anyone concerned that the health industry spent billions to keep the status quo , but would not spend those billions to help fund a free health care plan for the have nots ? perhaps if they stopped scaring people and the public stopped acting like they are brand new and have no knowledge of how twisted the health industry is we as a people could get something done for all. i'm still on my coffee cabaret for health care coverage, tea party be darned!!! unless i get a refund for all the day's me and my kids were never sick, i have no interest in hearing from the Richy Rich family of selfish loot. LONG LIVE THE COFFEE CABARET OF HEALTH COVERAGE!

Valentine's Day...what can you say about national candy day except, it's about the love, all the STUFF has it's place, but it should be about the love, the like, the lust ,of somebody in your life. People get caught up in stuff....money is funny for most these last few years, downright hysterical for some, so we as ladies and some men have to realize this. People need to be more creative, when I was married a nice Valentine Day plan was, find a friend to watch the kid(s), cook or order up a meal, mine was seafood pasta and some baked breadsticks and a cake, it was a wonderful thing. Cooking the meal together can be fun or taking the drive to pick it up. Later when I was single, we'd pick up dinner, drinks, dessert, take back to the pleasure place, watch a good flick and enjoy Valentine's day, I find funny gifts work better. See my birthday is wayyyy more special to me than a Candy day.

I've decided, if the powers that be...the really greedy have's don't want to share the healthcare wealth, then do this, for all the years I worked and contributed and was healthy, including my offspring, I want a refund, then I can afford to purchase healthcare , see I started working at 15 and taxes, medical, social security all of the mentioned plus was taken out of my check, so now that I'm in need, Gimme my staying healthy Loot!!!! This tea party non-sense is working my nerves big time. I have formed my own group the Coffee Cabaret for Coverage, we the people (ALL) the people in this blessed country will learn to share, care and love one another, if in fact it is God we trust, then we should strive to act and be more God-like Share!!!!!!

Michigan that lovely greatlake city, for those of us in the big D or what was formerly known as the big D trying to survive it's no fun stuff. I have friends leaving in bunches for other states and places, can anyone tell me why the states that have the most jobs are also the coldest...eww, i don't know about everybody else, but the older I get the less I enjoy snow and subartic temps??? I'm trying to be strong and sing Gloria Gaynor I will survive, but....somedays it gets hard out hear for the unemployed.