Life

Okay I was not as excited as I usually am for Super Bowl, only cause I don't really live anywhere...So we feasted and had a fun day, but I like being with my kids, I watched MADONNA, she was good, but watchin her, sure did remind me that none of us are 27 anymore, she was moving careful..lol, I'm finally trying to move forward and not look back, a parent told me, I waited to long for some things in my life and I guess I did, no use crying over it now, It hurts, it's hard, but hey I got work to do, I'm working again, it's a start, I was able for the first time in ages to get my babies some shoes and get our hair done. God is good. I spent some movie time with a pal, good flick. Now it's time to find a spot of my own.

I prayed and had a quiet birthday, Christmas and New Year, just around those I like and care about, I got the greatest B-day kiss from one of my top 5 kissers i know, that was nice, the new year i spent being the hostess with the mostess and left to go to bed. I missed Texas, but Texas is no more. I started on a new adventure to make the doughnuts, I'm working nights, I figure that will keep me busy on date nights...lol. I just have to adjust to working in a whole world of mostly 20agers...omgosh! For the new year I'm trying to focus on my babies and taking care of me, my body is starting to feel like me again, I'm buying a bike soon to keep some exercise incorporated in my life, I've started to un-replace food for things and people I miss, A lady I know gave some things to consider about my romantic life, she was right and I have been reflecting ever since, oh well, gotta keep it moving. It's time for new things, new love, new adventures, my babies are happy ...

Well I'm thankful, this was a better year. I'm working part time, better than no time and another part time is to soon follow, next new digs..., my kids are great, they were happy to have a bit more than last year. I spent the day with them, I cooked I chilled and talked with the x and the outlaws, it was a quiet nice holiday. I'm trying to get my rides fixed and I tell you, I'm pooped, my son is pre-occ'd with his girl, which means he's no help to me. Oh the joys of maturity. I'm hungry and waiting for a ride to the homestead, early day tomorrow, God is Good and he is gracious. I plan for this year to be my year, up and on!

Okay I've decided I need a boyfriend..., I'm dating my self...lol, I need that guy who wants to do dinner and movies and boyfriend stuff, I miss Texas. I'm tired of guys wanting to CHILL, I can do that myself, by myself, with my girls, I'm not asking you to spend a grip, but I wanna go to movies and do fun stuff..ugh, My birthday I spent hanging with my kids and my girls. Now I'm busy trying to generate some serious income for this business I'm currently working with. Who knows may be I will have my own Karate school someday, It could happen, I see me and my kids with our own someday, I need my own business a legacy to pass on to my familia.

Well I was blessed to see another year. I spent my day with my kids, they played hooky and stayed with me, they were concerned about me being alone on my birthday. I got good kids, my little girl made me a special card, the oldest got me a card and even their pops, my x got me a sweet scarf and card. Texas called me this am, The Great One gave me a birthday kiss...WOW!, but otherwise I gave thanks and enjoyed some tamales my bff made me, a job called me that was my ULTIMATE highpoint, me and crew plan to dip out the weekend and have some fun. My mom called me, I'm just ready to keep it movin, I want a place of my own again and be with me babies. My plan is to be independently wealthy, I'm praying about it daily, now I gotta get ready to work out tonight and have a late movie date...

It's been a busy time. Went to a wedding with former co-workers, it was good seeing some of them, some of the fake people, please, please, spare me your fake concern, ugh, back off, buzz off, bust up away from me. See your first sign should be when you place your hand on my shoulder in fake concern i look at that hand. See I've already broken it and flung you across the room. See I'm tired of so called know it all folk trying to figure me out, talking about i could, should blah blah blah, all while tucked safely away in the comfort of your world. It's hard out here, but God is good and I will figure it out and work it out. In other news is there a McDonalds that actually serves "fast food" and Wendy's caught me off guard with a price hike...yikes?

It's almost candy day it's cold and damp outside I miss Texas. I feel like i'm in a serious of unfortunate events. I waited and was patient, because I know that every journey has a destination, well mine was The End. Usually I see these things coming, but wouldn't you know my goofy self got ddt'd and next thing I know pinfall of heartbreak and 3 count and I'm out. Anyhoo onward and upward, I must now get back on my grind and lose the love's broken heart weight I put on, Chocolate is a good replacement, but it will place on your bod...omg. Hopefully life opps will get better I will make some real loot and get on with life with my kids, we gotta find our own digs together again. I did finally get my hair did, after this it's braid weave and fun hair time, this is for the job hunt.