Life

I am findng life extremely difficult at best.  Finding lasting work is becoming a joke at least in Michigan..or Detroit, if you don't have a car, you are screwed to the 9th power, because we have no decent public transportation.  The people who could help you, don't because they have jobs...It's not being selfish on purpose, it's just they have no need, so they don't understand your need to work.  Men...oh I love and cherish them, but and I say this with love, could you see, how maybe I don't want to date and what not until I get my life in order, maybe the one person I loved and thought would be a part of them team, has been traded off due to their own life issues, can you see that as a mother trying to get back in her house with her kids, dealing with a whiny ex, trying to keep some income and it seems to not be working life is getting hard to bear.

IT'S FALL AGAIN, I'M SO NOT READY FOR IT.  I MISS MY HOUSE, HAVING MY STUFF MY WAY, I'M THANKFUL I HAVE A PLACE TO BE, BUT THERE REALLY IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME.  I'M STILL SEARCHIN FOR A PERMANENT FULL TIME GIG, IT IS TRULY UGLY OUT HERE.  BUT I DO WHAT I MUST.  MY FRIEND...I USED TO SAY MY GUY, BUT THE PLAYERS CODE DECLARES, ONE MUST NEVER CLAIM THE ONE YOU CARE FOR  IN PUBLIC, UNLESS...THEY ARE ANOTHER RACE.  ANYHOO I MISS HIM, TOGETHER WE WERE A GOOD TEAM, BUT I'M TIRED OF BEING NO 2 IN MEN'S LIFE, DUE TO WHATEVER THE REASON I NO LONGER CARE...IF I CAN'T BE THE ONE, NUMBER ONE, WHY BOTHER, AND I'M NOT, I'M JUST SURFIN THE WAVES OF LIFE.

MY WEEKEND WAS SPECTACULAR..IT WAS A BIG SPORTS KARATE FITNESS EVENT, I GOT TO MEET AND GREET NEW FACES FROM NEW PLACES...MET A HANG OUT BUDDY AND WE HAD THE BEST TIME...IT WAS NICE TO BE THE FOCUS AND CENTER OF ATTENTION FOR A CHANGE. YEP I GOT TO BE NUMBER 1, IT'S ONLY SIGNIFICANT TO ME, BECAUSE MANY MEN THINK THEY CAN HAVE A 1 AND 2, I'M AT THE STAGE AND PLACE IN MY LIFE THAT IF I CAN'T BE THE NO. 1, WHY BOTHER? WHAT IS THE POINT,?WHAT POSSIBLE BENEFIT IS IT TO ME? I HEAR NELLY'S SONG "I AM NUMBER ONE..., ANYHOO ,ME AND MY HANG BUD WE CHILLAXED , TALKED AND HAD A BLAST. I ALSO WENT ON A YACHT CRUISE I WON, WHICH TAUGHT ME ABOUT FRENCH WINE AND CHEESES ETC.., IT WAS A GORGEOUS CRUISE, HOWEVER MOST OF THE PEOPLE WERE COUPLED UP AND HAPPY, NONE OF THIS AMBIGUOUS NONSENSE , SEE BACK TO HE NO. 1 POINT IF WE ARE TOGETHER WE ARE TOGETHER, IF WE ARE NOT, SO BE IT, BUT I AIN'T , I'M NOT, I CAN'T BE NUMBER 2, I AM FAR TOO WONDERFUL AS #1.